...all is well. My sponsor just celebrated 11 years. Life is good.
I am thinking I will try and post at least once a month if not more. So let me tell you what I have been doing this last month.
I had a vacation. It was great. I did not plan my supply of booze and drugs I would need. I planned on food supplies and activities to do. A dear friend came to stay for couple of days. We played like little kids , going to the duck pond to feed the children bread so they could feed the ducks. We played with my new toys and obsession , Radio control helicopters. She drove my little truck and I would try and dive bomb it with my heli.
You know going back to work or leading up to it brought back some emotions I had when I was drinking. That sinking feeling , that dread of all things. I had an ache in my belly of anxiety that I had not felt in some time . When I was drinking it was there all the time dreading all things to come because most of the future at that time looked bleak . Being sober and mostly happy I could change my tune and sing the joys of life and drive away the blues. The belly ache did not last. Being sober is so good .
Love you all Jaybird
