....since my last post . I have been busy with my new hobby . I am defiantly alcoholic , in the way I behave with everyday things . I guess addictive behavior is a better description . I have been consumed by this helicopter . Every free moment and even the ones that are not free have been given to time with my heli . I have neglected my chores and even sleep . I want to skip work and fix this toy and fly some more . Things like this I did all the time when drinking and smoking pot .
Being sober has allowed me to see this behavior and not let it get to much in the way of life . Being sober allows me to stay in control and do the next right thing . Being sober allows me to dip in the world of extravagant behavior and pull back to reality .
What I have seen in my self in these last few weeks remind me of what I was and how horrible it could get . I can never forget the full wrath of being a drunk . I have to remember that I have a choice to live and enjoy life . I have to remember I only have this power by not drinking . If I do drink or use drugs I will lose that ability to make the choice to the next right thing .
My next post will be sorta of a description of a day in the life of an active drunk . Should be horrible fun .
Love you , Jaybird
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