I hate this thing ...

Some may say it is a disease . I am not sure exactly what it is but being an alcoholic is like having a monster after you . This monster wants you dead . It can be tricky and make you think every thing is alright .You may  have control .  I can handle Just one drink .  
Being a monster it can due its most damage when you are alone . It wants you to be alone so you are vulnerable to its tricky ways . Then when you are  it will beat the ever livin shit out of you . 
So , do not isolate . Make many friends . Keep in contact with them . In AA you can have lots of friends who know all about your issues with alcohol . They will help fight this beast .
Love you , Jaybird
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