Why , Why ...

In the beginning my drinking was for pleasure , it was an adjective to an event . I did know early on that I was alcoholic . They way I drank and the way I felt about my drinking , I knew I was alcoholic . I thought that it was not such a bad thing . In the beginning it was not bad , drinking was fun . It did not get in the way of my life or affect it in really bad ways . It was an adjective to life's event .

I did not see it happen, but I did realize at some point the drugs and alcohol were not an adjective but became the main event . There were no longer places to go or things to do but just a way to drink or drug . Some how it switched from being a second thought to all our plans to being the only thought of plans .
Love you , Jaybird
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