I am at peace ...

Today I am at peace . Today I can be happy almost always . When I am not happy it usually does not take me long to be so again . If I want to stay this way I do have to remember when it was not so good . If I were to forget how horrible it was I may make a mistake of drinking again .
Just the other day I was reminded of a time when it was very bad for me . When I would have the shakes in the morning if I had not saved enough to drink before the stores open . Mornings were bad . I might only have a little bit left to drink . If I cant keep it down that is not good . I could be nauseous  in the morning .
One day it was early , hours before the store opened and I only had so much left to drink . I did not keep it down . I had a can I used to vomit in . I am getting shaky thinking about it now . I re drank that booze . I did not want to but had no choice . I may not have made it through those couple of hours with out that regurgitated  booze . It is veery uncomfortable thinking about that . I can not forget how bad it will get if I drink again .
So today is good . I did not  have a drink today . I don't think I will in the morning either .
Love you , Jaybird
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