Why did I stop ....

Why did I stop drinking ? I was having a miserable time .I was going to die . I could not afford it any more . I had no money . You see , most alcoholics if given the chance will continue to drink . That is why in most cases we need to hit bottom before we make an effort to change . I had hit the wall or bottom . I had no where else to go . I was to either dig a hole and die in it or make an effort to get over that wall . 


I chose to live and the only way to  do that was to stop drinking . I had wanted to make that  choice for about three years . My drinking of a half gallon a day required that I not do it at home . When you drink this much you must have medical supervision when you stop . If you do not you will die any way . Your body will react in a bad way of not having its daily dose of booze . You will convulse , have seizures and your heart will stop . 


When thinking about stopping I often thought my life would be nothing . What would I do ? Who would I know ? I must take up my hobbies again for I will have so much time on my hands . When drinking there were times the days dragged on , seemed long . I filled that time by drinking and passing out . What was I going to do now ? I would have no friends because they all drink . 
I now  have very little time on my hands . Not enough time for all my friends . Not enough time for all that is asked of me or that I ask of myself . I guess it is good to be so busy , leaves no time for drinking . 
Love you , Jaybird 
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